1- Kehidupan aku kian terumbang-ambing. Ditolak kekiri dan kekanan. Dihitam dan diputihkan. Segalanya menjadi perlahan dan sukar untuk aku tembusi. Pelbagai aksi stunt dan extreme aku cuba buat, tapi sangat susah nak dapat. Baru aku tersedar dari lena bahawa “Kelajuan Broadband Celcom” bakal menjadi satu komoditi yang sangat sukar untuk diperolehi seperti mana yang bakal menimpa nasib minyak mentah pada 2050. Pssst…patutlah dalam phonebook telepon cikai (bak kata anak2 buah aku tuh) aku letak nama celcom broadband sebagai Celcom Bangang (tidak berniat merendah2kan kampeni telco yang lain ye!!!)
2- Bandwidth Controlled!! You are under my provision. Aku tak boleh memanipulasi talian internet kat ofis sesuka minda aku saje sebab setiap byte yang terjerumus ke dalam hard disc laptop aku, ia akan disimpan di dalam database “Helpdesk” dan setiap akhir bulan akan tersenarai nama-nama mereka yang paling banyak menggunakan Bandwidth dalam bulan semasa. Kalau rasa-rasa tak nak nama naik dan dipandang serong oleh golongan kasta tertinggi, pandai2la focus pada kerja saja (facebook dimaafkan)
3- Kekosongan bila balik ke rumah. Sangat kosong. Mungkin takde peti ais untuk aku simpan Marigold Peel Fresh. Mungkin juga takde MTV sebab TV pun takde. Atau aku tergamam seketika melihat timbunan baju2 ternoda dan aku menjengah ke dapur, tiada riak2 wajah mesin basuh menjelma. Munkin juga aku ingin berbicara, tiada siapa yang ada kt rumah. Hanya aku dan diri aku. Mungkin aku patut menenangkan diri aku dengan berenang2 di kolam jadian di hadapan rumah, tapi apakah ertinya jika renangan itu hanya aku dan diri aku. Aku dalam proses mencari tempat perlindungan yang baru tapi usaha itu masih menemui jalan yang suram. Sukar rasanya mencari tempat yang tiada terma “aku dan diri aku” sahaja tapi mesti ada punya. Tunggulah 2-3 minggu lagi.
4- Subjek. Dekat opis, ada satu mamat. Aidi namanya. Aku dan Wan Hamdi (rakan opis jugak) suka menjadikan rakan ni sebagai subjek bahan tawa dan penghilang duka setelah separuh hari memerah otak melayan kehendak2 yang merepek. Kenapa subjek? Kalau kamu ingin ketawa, kamu mesti mempunyai sebab kenapa kamu ketawa. So Aidi dijadikan asbab dan musabab untuk kami melupakan seketika kegawatan emosi di dalam ruang lingkup pejabat. Tapi kami tak bermaksud apa2..Cuma sekadar hiburan sampingan. Kami tahu kamu suka dijadikan subjek hahahahah (gelak2 sambil mengorek idong tanpa isi)
5- Sosial terhalang. Sejak berpindah ke Shah Alam, aku rasa banyak perkara yang tak boleh aku buat lagi. Segala-galanya aku rasa macam jauh je. Orang jelak dengan life kat KL ni, tapi aku rasa kalau ko pandai nak handle, ia jadi senang jugak. Entahlah..apa yang aku nak pun, aku pun tak tawww. Aku taw tapi tak boleh nak tulis kat sini. Obscene sangat.
6- Sinikal. Aku suka tengok orang yg sinikal ni. Segala-galanya dibalas dengan kata-kata sinis..tapi aku lebih suka tengok orang yang dapat membalas sinis dengan sinis. Buku bertemu ruas. Baru puas hati aku. Eh…motif??
7- I don’t give a shit? Bunyik macam selfish punya manusia kan tapi orang tuh perasan bagus sebenarnya
8- Live in denial. I don’t give a shit about it…..Ehh??? ????????????
I’m not ready YET for any kind of relationship. I want it so bad, but that precious moment yet still far from my grip. I want to explore MORE. Hiding under the “tempurung” all this time doesn’t make me ready to face the cruelest world ever. U met ONE person, which u barely knew, and fortunately u got a positive response doesn’t make you’re a match made in heaven. Love needs me to sacrifice something but I’m selfish. I’m not doing something which I still have a doubt about it. I am happy knowing the fact that I’m in some healthy relationship but it’s not the right time YET. Maybe I want to get out from the relationship but I’m afraid to be alone again. Yeah, I’m “selling the fish” again.
The Super Fitted Room
I already moved out to my new house..Yayy!!! I should celebrate it yeah?? But things didn’t go with the plan accordingly. You could be blind with your first sight. I didn’t realize how small the room is until I live in it. My house has a very great facilities such as swimming pool, gymnasium, security, and there’s no doubt that it is beautifully made. The rent…yeah pricey. “You win some, you lose some”. Despite the over-whelming comment from my best buddy about the house, the rest kinda suck, for me at least. My other housemate, is a 45++ years old guy whois “bachelor” only on the weekdays. He just be with his family on the weekend in Kedah. Hmmm this could be interesting. Old guy should have a lot of story to share…lol..sound cynical.. Not only that, the house doesn’t have the capability to provide me a good internet coverage either Celcom or Wimax. It’s kind a hard for me to accept it since I’m a super heavy downloader. I couldn’t imagine my life without the broadband. I think I blog about it sometime around last year when I moved in into Setapak. I’m seeking the alternative now and the only option that I have is Streamyx. Yay!!!! (Perhaps u didn’t assume that I’m happy having Streamyx as my only source of downloads illegal movies). The world doesn’t revolve around me. I need to make my home now as luxurious as it seen (inside and outside). Can’t force everyone and everything to make things that I want it to be. There’re lots of hurdles in this life. Keep that in mind.
Miss the old glory times
I’m still missing my old colleagues in CAIRO, UTM. One year being together just bonds us with a very great friendship. I didn’t get to create that environment here because of the age factor and most of the people here have different direction (because they’re married). I wish I could go back there but my path is different now. I miss u guys…each and every of you….
Wow..this guy is just amazing. Despite the heat and super packed stadium, I managed to make myself comfortable by dancing “like a crazy guy” to each of his song. I get in there a bit late because I’m “queuing” in the wrong line (and I’m fcuking missed the opening!!). He starting the night with “The Remedy” song which I heard it OUTSIDE the stadium. I’m surprised that there was no opening act from the local artiste. I suppose that is the rule for every performer outside from this country while they’re doing their show here. The temperature inside the stadium just freaking high. Since I’m late plus I bought the cheapest ticket, all the seat were already full and we had to stand while seeing Jason Mraz just a bit tall from a matchstick haha (the stadium is small, compare to the Stadium Merdeka which I’ve seen Avril Lavigne has the same size with a lice)
5 minutes after we “ngomel-ngomel” how uncomfortable we are sniffing other people butt, the security guard let a few people (including us) to go to the other side of which is for RM168 ticket. I’m just like “Waaaahhhh!!!…Seriously??” Wer are so fortunate laa….the ticket is so mahal. That place is a numbered seating, so we had to stand behind. Tho Jason Mraz is still far but that place much better than our original place. There were just few people standing behind and wer likecrazy adult dancing to each and every song that Mr Mraz sing (actually I’m the one who dancing like I’m in some club haha)..i mean…u pay rm68 and just what?sitting and just clap your hand??
Honestly, I can name a few of his song but most of the time, I don’t have any idea what’s the title of the song that he sing! I just dance and whoooing ….when he finished..i bet everybody waiting “I’m Yours” and when he does, it seem everybody took out their phone and recorded it. Gossh I tell ya, this guy is just amazing entertainer. I’m glad I got a chance to watch his show. Who knows when he will come back here. I’m not sure if he tried to speak our Bahasa Melayu language (the sound system wasn’t really good) but the second part of his show, he wears “I love KL” shirt and his musician wearing our national football team jersey.
Kudos to Jason Mraz for heating up the nite!! Ur just great!
Yay!! I got my 1st paid working in DiGi. A little bit late from my previous work and having JUST 28 days last month make everything a bit difficult and tired!!! Tired of queing at the ATM machine (to pay all the loans , etc ) since it’s Saturday and the banking system “over the counter” is closed. One day late paying my car’s loan since i hate standing behind other people butt…Urghhh…i’m sure the bank get a lot of interest this month…
Being an adult make everything pretty hard, u know. U worry about your money, your life, your work and sometime even a very small thing can turn into a big giant monster that haunt you every night. I use to take thing for granted, especially money but my very close friend warned me that “stop thinking about the money. It won’t bring you anywhere. Pay attention to the word REZEKI”.
My salary, i can say i earn quite a lot but strange….i never feel enough. I’m always short and broke when it comes to the end of the month. Stop thinking that i have a secret account in Swiss, whatsoever cuz i didn’t have one. Pretty pathetic since i already working about a year.
Credit card?? it’s a killing machine if you don’t know how to use properly and it’s getting near to killed me. Thankfully, i realized it and i’m doing a recovery plan right now. I had 3 credit cards and now i only got one…just in case (what case? i dunno). So i’m trying my best right now buying something with actual money, which you can see how the money look like. Using credit card, i don’t care how much i spend or what i buy just swipe and swipe and swipe..So if u wanna use credit card, carry on it really helpful especially buying gas and booking movie ticket but use it wisely. Don’t be like me. What i can tell,this December 2009, i can declare that i’m free from credit card debt! So can u guess how much i’m already spend?? hahaha
